Again

The dogs are howling
Betrayal in the night
But who's the hunter
And who is taking flight?

The fever's up now
And blood is on the wind
Consumed by hunger
I'm burning in my skin

What am I doing?
(I dig my teeth in and I hold on tight)
Playing with fire
One more time

Just let it go, girl
Let it fade away
The ones you love
You cannot make them stay
Let it go, girl,
Learn to ride the wind
‘Cause if you don't it's gonna break you

You gave no warning
So how could I steer clear?
Too late for running
Much too late for fear

What am I doing?
(I dig my teeth in and I hold on tight)
Playing the victim
One more time

I know the river keeps on flowing but I try to turn the tide
I'm terrified of time and I'd do anything to have you back here by my side again
So I cling to what I cannot keep and I cry for what I cannot mend
When I should learn to bend like a reed in the breeze and take it easy…

Just let it go, girl
Let it fade to black
The ones who leave
You cannot wish them back
Let it go, girl
Learn to ride the wind
If you don't it's gonna break you

Just let it go, girl
Let it fade away
The ones you love
You cannot make them stay
Let it go, girl
Learn to ride the wind
If you don't
It's gonna break you…
Again.

 

January Snow

Cold as stone,
Like unpolished diamonds, your
Ice-blue eyes
Silently watching me

You're an iceberg
An Arctic midnight.
I sail Titanic
Drawn to the negative light

And I must be broken
So no words are spoken
One more heart is frozen
In this January Snow

Skating, waiting
For your touch
Hypnotizing
Like the glitter of morning

And I must be broken
So no words are spoken
One more heart is frozen
In this January Snow

If I could melt you, we'd rise
Like steam from the rooftops
To breathless Septembers
To sun-drenched Julys…

But I must be broken
So no words are spoken
One more heart is frozen
In the January Snow

Yes I have been chosen
And I will be broken
So my love is frozen
In this January Snow.

 

Merry-Go-Round

What happened to my dangerous days?
I used to be so hot, so extreme,
But this year's been tough and I got so self-protective --
Now I'm the Ice Queen

So quiet, so inviolate
A castle wall without a gate
All I do is sit and wait
For my arteries to harden

Middle-aged at 25
Imagination paralyzed
All alone Friday night
Walking in the garden

And even the trees are disappointed
To see me old before my time - they say
“Keep your roots above the ground
The years you lose can never be found
In evening shade there is no sound
Like laughter on the Merry-Go-Round,
Laughter on the Merry-Go-Round.”

I used to wake up at 4 a.m.
With my face in the sidewalk
Burned up the city, walked the high wire
I used to talk the dirty talk

But Saturday night at half-past ten
I'm in the grocery store again
Coming home to an empty bed
Stone cold sober

Middle-aged at 25
It's high time I came back to life
Wanna dance tonight under neon lights
Roll naked in the clover

And even the trees are disappointed…

I played football with Buddha
And when I asked him he smiled
He said "We all grow old in time
And you will soon, my child."
And life comes knocking at my door
Almost every day
I wrap my blanket around my knees
And turn the other way

And even the trees are disappointed...

 

Clean

I analyze you to death
Count your every waking breath
Always new ways to obsess -
How did I get this sickness?

I think your power is absolute
I tear my hair out by the root
And nothing I do bears any fruit -
How did I get in this mess?

Like a bad trip, like a slip of the tongue
Try to hit rewind but the damage is done.

Cruel disease
You don't want me
But I can't let you be
So it never ends Clean
Cruel disease
You're my nicotine
And I can't let you be
So it never ends Clean

Twisted Chrysalis
There is no escaping this
Dancing over the abyss -
How did I get this sickness?

Like a dead-end road, like a misfired gun
Try to take it back, but the bullet is long gone

Cruel Disease...

There's no way out of this…

And the damage is done
The damage is already done -
I'm so far gone

 

Rainbow

I used to dream in blacks and indigos
Like a murder of crows
In Van Gogh's dark horizons

Used to be a grey sky girl
In a grey sky world
Where the flood was always rising

But I found my yellow-brick-road
Now it's sunshine all the way.
Found my smile in an orange plastic bottle
Fifty milligrams a day

And these small blue pills
Ease my pain
Chemical umbrella
Protect me from the rain
So I don't have to feel
And I don't have to know
These small blue pills
Paint me a rainbow
Paint me a rainbow

And should I go back to black?
To everything I lack?
To the chaos and confusion?

Well, if reality's the holy grail
Honey, mine's for sale
Trade it for illusion any day

‘Cause I found my yellow-brick-road
And I'm laughing all the way
Seeing life through an orange plastic bottle
Well it makes everything okay…

These small blue pills
Ease my pain
Chemical umbrella
Protect me from the rain
So I don't have to feel
And I don't have to know
These small blue pills, oh
These small blue pills
Ease my pain
Chemical umbrella
Protect me from the rain
And it may not be real
But I don't have to know
‘Cause these small blue pills
Paint me a rainbow
They paint me a rainbow

Come, come to the Prozac Nation
Where the scarecrow and the tin man can be king
Where life is one long celebration
And even witches get to sing
Even witches get to sing

 

Past Unconditional

A hole in the clouds and I fall through
Another life another time another me another you
A cave underground that I crawl through
Another life another time another me another you

Lost on the edge again, you taste the earth
And wonder how to begin
Smoke your cheap cigarettes, take your cynical brushes
And color my skin

And when our dark eyes meet, time freezes
Oxygen burns
Back in the bloodstream again, the only addiction
That always returns

And what makes a love?
Is history enough?
What makes a love?
Is poetry enough?
What makes a love?
Is chemistry enough?
What makes a love?
Is honesty enough?

First time we met, a blazing fire
Night of the Goddess, flaming desire
You were the King of the Spring, you made me sing
When you made me your Queen

Then I was a healer, a thinker in China
You were my wayward warrior son
I sat like the lotus, would not be provoked
You hurled yourself into oblivion

After the slaughter, I was your daughter
Dancing in Paris after the war
It is 1953, and I am free as a bird
Beneath the wings of my protector

Lovers once more on the African shore
Drums woke us, the voodoo spoke to us
We drank it happily, rolled in ecstasy
One living entity breathing as two

And what makes a love?… / A hole in the clouds…

And when I look in your eyes I see lives behind lives beyond truth beyond space beyond time
And when I look in your eyes I see lives behind lives beyond truth beyond space beyond time
And I have loved you all through time
Your every breath is bound to mine
Our footsteps, intertwined
And death has no dominion

We are the children of creation
We shall not cease from exploration
We are the children of creation
And death has no dominion

And what makes a love?… / A hole in the clouds…

And words will never be enough
Words will never be enough
What could ever be enough
To remember this love?

Present imperative
Future subjunctive
Past Unconditional
Past Unconditional

And words will never be enough
What could ever be enough?
One life will never be enough
To remember this love…

 

Galatea

Always scared you, didn't I?
I've got dragon eyes,
Dark wings made to fly,
The crazy disciple of desire

Always challenged you, didn't I?
I was your spirit guide,
Your one-woman landslide
The first to really inspire you

But all you wanted was a china doll
To lock inside your glass house
For all the world to see -
Well, that was never going to be me

So you found your Galatea
So innocent, so sweet
Her pretty little lips don't breathe a word
She's fascinated when you speak
Galatea 
Such pure untainted clay
You'll mold her to your fantasy
She'll quietly obey

But when the roses fade
And all the games are played
And she still has nothing meaningful to say

You will dream of me
Of how it used to be
When we breathed fire every day

But all you wanted was a china doll...

Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Who's the fairest of them all?

Galatea – She'll never touch the sky
Galatea – She'll never break the mold
Galatea – So beautiful by your side
Galatea – I hope she was worth the ride
‘Cause someday you'll recall
That you belong to me
And baby you'll be lonely...

 

Laughable Tragedy

He never wanted me
He sang my songs
In that old blue thinking cap
He cried into his bourbon
I held his hand
But he never wanted me

He never wanted me
We walked by the rainy river
I trembled every time
He air-conducted Mahler
He touched his arm to mine
But he never wanted me

So I ran across the sea
To sunny California
Where the skies are always blue
Where tears don't last for long
'Cause we've got plastic smiles in our pockets
And I'm gonna have one tattooed onto my lips

As a reminder
To remember
And never
Trust anyone
Who's too fond
Of Mahler

And my face
Is twisted
From thinking
Too much
Of this Laughable Tragedy

She said she was my friend
I nurtured her like a wounded bird
So blonde, so fragile
She came back from Germany
And she made him smile
She said she was my friend

She said she was my friend
But she walked away with him
And left me speechless
She said well he's beautiful
And I said yes
She said she was my friend

So I ran across the sea…

As a reminder
To remember
And never
Trust anyone
With blond hair
And sad eyes

And my face
Is twisted
From thinking
Too much
Of this Laughable Tragedy.

When I was young I wasted all my time
Dancing with shadows,
Teaching injured birds to fly.

So I ran across the sea…

 

Lover of Mine

Never thought I could do this
Didn't think I was this kind
But something about your body
Makes me lose my mind
‘Cause you play me like a ‘cello
Leave me hungry for more
But after the music's over
You're heading for the door

And is truth kinder than fiction?
Do I really want to know why -
Why I'm losing all of my convictions
Every time you walk by?
Lover of Mine

We never talk about it
But have you done this before?
Am I your lovely Venus
Or just another girl on the floor?
So many promises broken
So many ways to pretend.
When you go home to your lady
Where do you say you've been?

And is truth kinder than fiction?
Do you really believe the lie?
Do you blame it on your addiction
When you're lying awake at her side?
Lover of Mine

And is truth kinder than fiction?
Well honey all I can do is try
And tomorrow I'll be a good girl
If I can only see you tonight
Lover of Mine

 

Out of Mind

Thinking of you again
As morning starts to breathe
The way you turn your face from the sun
The way you don't believe in anything
No passion in your kiss
You cry out in your sleep
Freeze each and every feeling you possess
Afraid to run too deep

And you say that it's too high for you to climb
This mountain I've been scaling all my life
You know the road, you see the signs
You just choose to keep them Out Of Mind

Painter who never paints
Your brushes cobweb-strung
Your canvasses lie tattered and fading
Forgotten much too young

Still through the broken doors from time to time
I see the shadow of the man inside
It's not that he's so hard to find
You just choose to keep him Out Of Mind

Trapped inside the prison you designed
You walk the lonely corridors all night
Too scared to smash the walls and run outside
Too scared to burn a torch and light the blind dark where you always hide

Thought you could be with me
Thought you were of my tribe
Thought you could be with me
You're afraid to try

‘Cause you say that it's too high for you to climb
This mountain I've been scaling all my life
You know the road, you see the signs
You just choose to keep them Out Of Mind
And I know I need a rhythm for my rhyme
A love to share the days that make a life
So if you'll never grow into my kind
I'll have to learn to keep you Out Of Mind
I'll have to learn to keep you Out Of Mind
Oh teach me how to keep you Out Of Mind

 

Today

She walks every night
In a world without air
And there's blood on her hands
There's death in her hair
Watch her crawl
To the surfacing world
It ripples and shimmers
In the eyes of a girl

When you've seen through the mirror, how can you unlearn?
Or make a return to straight lines?
Well, they say that in time we'll be saved –
It's a lie
All we have is today

They tore her away
From the place she was born
Now she spends all her days
Just trying to get home
And the faces she meets
Drift like foam on the seas
And the pain in her chest
Brings her down to her knees

When you've seen through the mirror, how can you unlearn?
Or make a return to straight lines?
Well, they say that in time we'll be saved –
It's a lie
All we have is today.

Ah -
Soon I'll be under the earth
In dreams again…